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thinking...

2005-03-04T16:19:00.000-08:00

life's so unpredictable, nobody knows what's gonna happen the next minute, much less the next day... i've normally take things one day at a time... not really planning for anything.. as a student, i just gotta make sure i attend classes, do my assignments and take the exams... yet there are times that i jus potang classes, copy assignments and of course... still rem to take exams! i'm not that slack!.. but as you look through the newspapers, which i've been doing regularly despite living in Brisbane (I would read the online versions of Straits Times and Business Times), one would come to realise or reinforce the fact that he is just a mere being. There are so many things that happen around us... there are times where i would see myself living say in Phuket, or States, and imagine myself as a Thai or American living the life what they would normally lead... simply, like that i've staying in Brisbane, i sometimes would be wondering if i were to still remain in S'pore, what would i be doing then... putting myself in different shoes.. ermmm.. kinda bo liaoz.. but somehow it gets me thinking... Life is short, live it. That's my philosophy, which bears resemblance to the M1 slogan "live life".

I've never really been satisfied about my life.. somehow something is lacking, but yet remains oblivious. I have had quite a smooth-sailing 21 years... nothing really great happen, riding out the well-taken path, no deviance... took the direct route to uni, been blessed with grades that just barely made the cut to the next level despite lousy studying habits... but still... it's probably too smooth or not as exciting enough.. however, if it gets too challenging, i'll probably give up... haHaz..

i've met great frenz who's been there for me all the while through ups and downs... appreciate them loads.. they are the ones that make life out of my life.. though it's really not the time that i spend with them that counts, it's really the thoughts... it's when in times of need, you know they'll be around to lend a helping hand.. even though i meet my sc frenz like probably once in 3 months, we're still great frenz.. (tho it sometimes wavers, but it'll be alright eventually.. ha!) ...my friendship w veron is a fine example.. we met each other in CJC S9.. or was it S11?.. during the first 3 months.. we didn't immediately hit it off.. jus remembered that we gave her a really gigantic card for her 17th birthday in January... our class was pretty cool, united and all sorts of rubbish came out, even though we barely know each other since it's only the first month.. i wrote what people normally write... "stay pretty and cool" kinda msg.. but as time goes, we started to grow closer with recess breaks together, skipping the tabletennis PE lessions together, and not forgetting.. toilet excursions together!.. it was pretty fun!.. since i got posted to NYJC after the 3 months, we still remain close and despite that soon after, she headed on to Switzerland for her hospitality studies... we were communicating through email and snail mail.. oh, it doesn't help that she's an indonesian.. hahAz.. she never forgets my birthday... always calling to wish me wherever she are.. she really travels around a lot.. hehez.. it's only me, who can't seem to register that her bday is on 21st, not 20th.. whenever she stop over in s'pore, i'll always try to make time for her.. and hang around together, catching up ole times in person... she's been a great friend all in all... those are the times that i cherish and still remember..

as you read the papers, there is no lack of success stories... people who started out with absolutely nothing to their name, but eventually made it big in their own ways.. not necessary monetary terms.. it could be achieving their dreams or goals... people who conquer difficult mountains, trips round the world with a mere bicycle.. they are motivated by just their passions.. the word is so strong, it can move a mountain and create miracles.. people who give up the high life, to pursue their interests... people who try to make careers out of them.. it's when u do something which you really like, that gives you a source of energy and a reason to being. the world is yours for taking.. i've yet to really find where my passion lies... been bumming around.. neither here nor there.. hopefully i will find it soon... =)

ha.. been rambling on and on.. dun see how everything links but it certainly din take me long to write this blog.. considering it was all inside me and things that will always remain fresh in my head.. back to the point, i've been asked to write down 2 things that i believe in during my development lecture.. not sure how it relates to real estate development, but the lecturer david wadley had gave no restrictions as to what the 2 things are.. anything under the sky.. oh well, the 2 things for me: friendship and passion.

new releasE!

2005-02-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

hmmm... i jus thot it will be nice if i just have a blog specially for my trip in Brisbane.. kinda consolidate everything that happens here.. so be sure to check it out k!

www.brisbaneuq.blogspot.com

p/s: tks to my IT deficiency, i don't know how to create another link for the new blog to this one.. hmPhz.

2005-02-19T23:46:00.000-08:00

We were planning to head to Harbour Town where most of the warehouses for surf shops like Roxy n Billabong are around in the afternoon after we are done with the beach... but it turned out.. we took a bus ride from Pacific Fair that lasted for more than an hour jus to get to a train station Helensvale where we were supposed to change another bus to the Harbour Town. Talk about confusing bus routes!.. and not to mention the ultra long journey!!!.. slept most of the way tho.. hahaz.. and that's not all!.. since all are unfamiliar with the place, we eventually missed the stop and headed to Southport where there's this Australian Fair... whatever is that?!... 4 lost sheep! Doesn't help that the shops closes by 530pm too!

me and fellow companion jolene at Australian Fair!

2005-02-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

our footprints left there!

2005-02-19T23:14:00.000-08:00

my shadow under the scorching sun!

2005-02-19T23:12:00.000-08:00

The sand is really fine on BroadBeach... haven't gone to see the Bondi Beach that Rina was STRONGLY recommending... haHaz.. but this one is enough a reason for me to return there again! hopefully, equipped with a surf board by then!

de lovely BroadBeach!

2005-02-19T23:10:00.000-08:00

Stepping out of the bus, i'm overwhelmed by the sheer size of the mall!!!.. there are also lil shops littered in the vicinity!!!.. super tempting! if only i had the money!!!.. turned out.. we only visited ONE store that says " Nothing over $10!!!".. whaHaz.. i dun wanna eat graSs!!

A mega shopping mall in gold coast!.. and i'm really saying it's mega!!

2005-02-19T23:09:00.000-08:00

my district!

2005-02-19T23:06:00.000-08:00

hAhaz.. to think even in brisbane, chesterton has its wings spread here!.. was stunned when i saw this advert board!... hmm.. they haven't change the logo to the lighter shade of blue one for this!...

omg.. traumatising experience continues to haunt!

i'm in BRISBANE!!! my 2nd day here!

2005-02-18T23:49:00.000-08:00

been bz in brizzy lately... only arrived yest at about 7am.. then basically room still in a mess and clothes are all crumpled in the luggage!.. went to explore around brizzy quite abit.. met shuwei earlier today.. oh yea! she studies in uq too!!!... 3rd year here liaoz.. nice of her to bring me and suan ku frenz around the city..

i've been trying to upload the chunks of photos nicely into the blog.. but having troubles.. cos dun wanna have different titles for each.. else very messy.. does anyone knows how to use the hello thingy to upload multiple photos or maybe use another kinda program to upload photos in the blog????

oh btw.. if anyone is interested in a shuai ge... there's my lil couzin... SUPER cute... SUPER nice... name's juffri.. check him out in my friendster!!!... haHaz.. =).. (free advertising huh? i'm under threat!)

my bed... with my teddy in sight! check out my fridge too!

2005-02-18T03:31:00.000-08:00

my room!!!... got my 5566!!!

2005-02-18T03:29:00.000-08:00

shihong and mi jie meis who sent me off to brissy.. hahAz.. luRve n miSs u guys!

2nd day of cny...i'm bored.

2005-02-10T19:19:00.000-08:00

Happy cny to all frenz and peepz out there!.. despite being the so-called holiday season where everyone suppose to be jolly and merry esp so for those on the receiving end of ang baos… I can’t help but feel bored throughout the whole thing. This period is one of the few, if not the only, that my family hangs around with the rest of the relatives… we used to count down for xmas as well.. but that has since became history donkey years ago. The adults still could hang around and get the right topics to talk about.. but me and cousins seem speechless throughout lunch on the first day.. there isn’t the warm atmosphere anymore… miss the days when we were younger and jus play hide-and-seek around the place or catching or simply jus grab the chance to bully the younger cousins… hehez.. but what has happened to us now?! Starting to dread cny… apart from the pineapple tarts!

Internship coming to an end.. sep is drawing near. Mixed feelings. A part of me wants to remain behind mainly cos of laziness to adapt to e new environment… but spore is getting too bored for me to stay… take for eg, was out with bud bud earlier for lunch at j8… things were pretty ok but I was secretly wishing for more… shops were closed for today, and it turned out we jus went back home after that. . there isn’t much stuff to do anyway.. even the movies don’t seem appealing!

My only Chinese new year resolution (since I’ve missed my 1st jan one.. hiakz!): to enjoy the simpler things in life. irony.

StartiNg my couNtdowN

2005-01-31T18:18:00.000-08:00

I’m left with NINE more days at work!!!.. yea!!.. hahaz.. finally, I’m beginning to see the end of my work days!.. and yearn to see for glimpses of my play days in foreign land!.. yabadabadOo!

viSa's done. finally.

2005-01-26T17:46:00.000-08:00

I’ve finally gotten my aust visa!.. took the immi ages to get it done!.. was beginning to suspect that I wun be able to make the trip there! Hmphz. Now that the visa is settled, I’ve gotta pay for my air tix… a whopping $1008! And I’ve already made a deposit of $150 previously!… why is the tix so ex?! Jeez.. and I’ve yet to repay my dad $500 for the visa since it only allows credit card transactions, I’ve only got debit … I’m still waiting for my supp card from tian! Hahaz..

Been hanging around in the office doing giant-size maps.. sounds uninteresting?.. it certainly beats checking all the relevant real estate law statutes online!!.. law know?! There mus be a reason that I’ve been having open book exams for all my law modules right… so thick!

Surabaya, 'ere i come!!

2005-01-20T17:10:00.000-08:00

Went back school today!.. hahaz.. attended Cheng Fook Jam’s valuation lecture, though could make no sense of what he’s saying… was disturbing Lay Khim and Dora instead.. who kept teasing me about my patchy face!… skin’s peeling pretty bad ever since I got back from kayaking over the last weekend… went to join the one-star kayaking course organised by NUS with tian.. jeez… it was a pretty tiring weekend manz.. kayaking from 10 to 5 for two days straight!.. not to mention that it’s been ages since I last went for a workout!… hmphz.. though I mus say it’s been fun… hahaz.. especially when there were two arts girls who kept us entertained throughout!.. dawn and gladys make quite a duo with all the capsizing and such… yepz.. we gotta capsize as part of the criteria to get that cert!… not a extremely pleasant experience… oh well.

Apparently the RE dept coming up with some China immersion summer programme which intrigues me and I really wanna go if I’m able to make it back from aust in time for it… but doubt it’ll begin only in July lo… must check their normal academic calendar.. a short trip to China should be fun.. but dun see myself spending a semester studying there.. probably sucidal to try learning all the real estate lingo in cheena! Property would be fang di chan, building would be jian zhu wu… goodnes!!!… and what’s with the strokes of chinese characters!!… pengz.. hehez…Hope they schedule it nice nice in July! And ermm… that I’ve enuff money to go for another trip!

Going Surabaya tomorrow!.. staying there for a mere three days two nights over at Veron’s place.. we’ve been talking about visiting her Indon for ages and finally it gonna materialise tmr!… can’t rem when was the last time I’ve been to indon.. probably to bali maybe… furthermore, she’s celebrating her 22nd bday tmr!… hahaz… ain’t I the best bday pressie anyone can ever wish for!?!?! .I know I am!!!… =pPp

ella's ultra cutE!

2005-01-11T21:50:00.000-08:00

went for SHE concert last sat!!!... pix was taken when they were singing mei li xin shi jie when all the dancers were dressed in fantasy characters... and there's the jack in the box... and dolphins.. hehez.. i love the song ever since i heard it on radio the very first time!.. it's so jumpy! picture not v well taken tks to my lousy digi cam.. as a result, din take many photos but i simply couldn't resist taking this one!!... ella's was so cute that night!... i adore her!

my 1st day of sch for the sem!

2005-01-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

Today was the first time I’ve went school ever since the end of exams last year… it’s probably gonna be my 1st and last time to go sch for this semester… or on a brighter note, maybe not… hehez.. gotta hand in dissertation form by hand by end of month!.. yea!..hahaz.. another excuse to get outta work and head sch soon!

Mus say it has been a pretty eventful day today…hmm… let’s go by the time yahz..

12am.. halfway talking to buddy on the phone… basically jus crapping.. till I was tired and head to bed.. jus the usual stuff.. hahaz… we used to crap so much!

7am.. alarm clock rings… unusually looking forward to get outta of bed and not simply jus laze around and jus head back to slp… hee… cos I know what’s in store for me today!

8.15am.. on bus 151 from jalan toa payoh, heading to sch… as always.. the bus was packed!.. no place to sit… bumped into a sec sch fren… terry.. jeez.. the last time I saw him was at sentosa flirting with some gal… hee.. still rem we, the sc bunch of girls always kinda mix around with the vs bunch.. normally had chalets every other holiday.. had loads of fun barbequing and terry certainly has a way with the chicken wings!... perfectly cooked! =)

9am… hmm.. okok, was late for 5 min… 9.05am.. when was I ever early for class anyway?!.. lest it’s a 2nd lesson for the day or there’s a test for the first lecture (kwame’s asset 5-min quizzes!).. yepz.. attended a half hour briefing.. after traveling one hr to sch!... not counting the journey back home!... talk conducted by dr grace wong.. she’s ok.. probably a bit fussy I feel.. but overall ok.. jus saw that she was commended for some excellent teaching award in nus… dr joseph oei too! Oh yahz… hee… congrats to dora yahz… *hint*.. hahaz.. instead of listening to the briefing, me and shuxin bombarded her with questions till she turned red.. =P

10.15am.. head to irc (my fac’s library) with shuxin to look for past year’s dissertation topics to get some INSPIRATION!.. boy do I need that!.. dun really know wat topic to choose manz… and I can jus die if I get some idiotic lecturer as my supervisor.. like Hwang min… I will jus volunteer to get a F grade without wasting my time and effort on it!

12pm.. went to sci fac, STA travel there to get my overseas student pass… no student rates for Surabaya tho.. hmphz..

12.45pm.. at PARTYWORLD!.. yea!!.. was singing our lungs, hearts and souls out then… crappy!... again, microphone not working properly… nv seems to be that the microphones are in proper condition.. they seem to be spoilt everytime I go!... or is that a sign???... hahaz…I ignore!

4pm.. met shijie on bus 156… hahaz.. what can two crappy girls do… but crap!?... hahaz…arguing over stupid stuff like wat’s the new building at sc.. jEez..

6.30pm.. went for a jog with huiming… been long since we last jogged in the park nearby… catching up on good ol’ times.. gal is still working and studying… have always admired her time and finance management for being able to juggle both and yet still can spend time and money to go holidaying with her jim!! Hehez… lovey dovey couple!... gonna celebrate her 22nd birthday soon on 31st with a bbq…. I wanna go!!!!

9.55pm.. serangoon gardens.. had icecream and crapping… not in happy mood tho.. probably cos I know what’s my life gonna be like in 12 hours’ time!

Been meeting frenz lately… jus idle chatting and updating each other… I love it like that!.. dun need to do anything fantastically unique, jus sit back relax and talk… joke, laffz, crap. Had the first ever major swensen’s girls’ nite out last night…! oh well.. 6 of us dun normally have time to meet together!.. everybody’s so bz with either work and school.. crap loads.. realized two of the chefs are attached and hahaz.. swensen’s certainly have a lot of relations here and there… whoever’s son, wife, gf… jEez.. confused!! Veron finally came s’pore during the week as well… din meet up w her a lot this time round cos of dumb work… kinda guilty yahz.. hehez… let’s see if I really manage to get to Surabaya next week k gal… you mus bring me around the place then yahz! Oh, and finally met up with my 3 sep frenz for lunch last sat… been emailing each other but nv met up… think 4 of us will enjoy ourselves there… even planning for long weekends to go other cities in aust! …pretty excited to get over to uq.. tk goodness, the grades are merely pass/fail…else, I wun be able to have as much fun if I gotta worry about the grades… but also kinda miss things over here already… contradicting huh.. hehez.. I’ve always been.

Long blog. Hahaz… Gonna slp early tonight and prepare myself for another yet boring day in the office tmr manz..... stupid moron dunno gg for the overseas biz trip not.. hopefully he is, else gotta see him for the next 4 days.. was counting on my luck not to see him for nine whole days!... but no… he gotta postpone his trip!... or at least that’s wat he said last fri…

*keeping fingers crossed*

suxxy 5-day week

2005-01-03T17:38:00.000-08:00

1 more hour to end of work… jeez… they implemented the 5-day week starting today, and why the heck am I affected? I din even have to work on Saturdays in the first place!.. and now I gotta end work half hour late each day!.. hahaz.. fellow intern Shuzhen also kept grumbling about it.. but really!. What has it gotta do with us!? I want to go home early!.. I’m a good girl!

As I woke up this morning.. while lazing in bed.. was wondering why the rain has stopped… it rained non-stop from noon till late night yest… on a Sunday!.. when I was supposed to be out to play.. stranded at home the entire day cos of the pouring rain!.. wat luck!.. and yet today, when I’m due for work, there isn’t any rain!.. I would rather it rain while I’m at work, ya know!?… does the weather has a soul or smthg? how does it predict the day I wanna be out jus so it would rain and spoil my day???.. used to think that when it rains, it simply means that there were many boiling kettles that contributed to evaporation, and the vapour will condense and somehow fall as rain.. so if a region is raining a lot, it jus means many boiling kettles… hahaz.. oh well, at least we were taught something like that for the water cycle topic in primary school wat…ermmm.. isn't it?

Start of 2005 already… hmm.. counting down to the days I head to UQ… been thinking of what to study over there.. and if they will match my uni requirements over here.. headache! What’s more with the dissertation topic!.. arghz.. so troublesome… I dun know what I wanna do manz.. can’t they jus gimme the topic and I do my research from there?!.. I’m stuck with too many options!…

Mum’s gonna be back from genting today!… actually it din seem like she has gone very long…. Probably can be longer next time?.. hehez.. jus glad that she will be back home today.. kinda missed her cooking.. been eating junk food all these while..

I wanna go home early to play pharoah!!!

p/s: dear fren veron supposed to arrive from indo yest night to keep me company... she bluff me!! again!!!

dreadeD disAsteR

2004-12-27T22:10:00.000-08:00

Christmas came and went! It was so fast!.. din even feel like I’ve celebrated it.. but I’ve probably had a whole new meaning to xmas this year.. went to two church services. all within 24 hours!... church of our saviour and city harvest.. hmm.. both are pretty interesting as they had performances of birth of Christ… pretty entertaining I must say.. glad to have so many people celebrating xmas together, minus all the rowdy crowd over in town… jeEz.. below is a verse that really struck me in both instances…

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever that believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." --John 3:16

Disaster has struck in many parts of the world. Was thinking why it didn’t happen to Singapore.. could hardly feel any tremors despite reports saying it affected certain areas.. kinda disappointed.. hehez… I would’ve like if there are some excitement around here manz… it’s so boring around here!.. nothing super interesting happen much here.. with probably the sars incident that cause some scare to pple.. but other than that, nothing much.. oh, or if u consider the bird flu thingy as well…

Nothing much happened at work today.. been wanting to request for a transfer to the Ppty management dept.. but haven’t had the guts to ask the guy.. mainly cos everybody says it’s not possible that he will relent.. what the heck!.. but I’m so bored to death at research!.. irritating know!.. can’t I do something that I like at work? It’s a 9 to 6 job for goodness sake! More than half of my waking hours are spent at the desk!... I dun even have such stamina to remain stuck at my seat in face of exams!! And now… jeEz.. it’s torturous!.. I love to study now!! Pass me some books, I assure you I will read them diligently and make summaries of them! Anything but work!

Been thinking what to do on new year’s eve.. isn’t there anything interesting to do??.. there’s sentosa countdown that day, bet town will be crowded as well… or do I just yearn for a quiet moment at home… am I boring or wat?? aHhhz!

you make me smile!

2004-12-25T23:45:00.000-08:00

Xmas pressie from tian!... adding to my collection of e bears… hmm… to date, TWO?!.. hahaz… mum isn’t too happy w me playing bears and collecting dust… but hey!.. it’s xmas!....oh yea.. you make me =))))

...piling newspapers

2004-12-21T20:37:00.000-08:00

I love reading newspapers. Mind you, there isn’t a hint of sarcasm in that. I’ve been reading loads of it, ever since I started my internship cos I’m assigned to the research dept. There are many many things that happen in Singapore, much more in the world. I am nothing but one pathetic individual living pretty much aimlessly these days. Day in, day out, I’m doing the same thing. Boring routine. Bland. Been trying to think of something that is worth doing, but failed.

Today, I chanced upon an article on this brave lady Grace Chow in the papers. Hmm.. actually I’m pretty easily touched and moved. She is one who had fought hard with a disease for 3 years, but eventually succumbed to life’s hard truth. Her blog, www.dyingis.blogspot has moved the hearts of many with her seemingly unwavering fighting spirit and I admire her husband Ton for being there for her all the way. She has written a book “Pain in the neck” as well during the period when she was ill… and below are some excerpts that I’ve extracted from her webpage that I find pretty interesting..

On Love: Theory of Love no. 764. How do you know you’ve met your true love? First of all, it is someone with whom you are completely at ease. When you know you can be exactly what you are no smarter, wittier, sportier, slimmer, or prettier, and still be accepted. When you finally feel free to reveal yourself and not hide behind a mask. When he prefers you without make-up and perfume. The person who truly loves you is someone with whom you can share your vulnerabilities and yet feel safe and secure because he protects you when you’re threatened or hurt.

On Freedom: ...For this, I have found the move abroad to be liberating in every sense of the word. I was finally a person in my own right, free to determine the course of my own life, because there were no longer parents to account to, and an interventionist government to be subjected under. The need to rely on established views faded since the flow of information was no longer monopolised.I felt this sense of freedom physically too: in the centre of Rotterdam there is a huge market square that is totally empty.Empty.Nothing is there, no trees, no benches, no fountains, no statues, just empty space. You could dance around and flap your arms wildly without hitting a thing. I was astounded when I first saw it. In Singapore, such wide, open, empty space could never be permitted. It would be considered a complete waste of an economic resource...

I argue strongly for freedom. It’s pretty much true that I’ve been living in a repressive society. Singapore’s been know to be quite restrictive and conservative, under the care of our highly protective government. There are many things that we gotta look out for.. Singapore is a FINE city.. The government metes out punishments by fining pple for wrongdoings and frowns upon the radicals. Many policies are laid out for pple, providing them routes (often only one) to live their lives… People who takes the road less travelled are sometimes envied for having the courage to step out of the box, while some are also chided at if they fail. A typical Singaporean would probably be one who undergoes the rigid education system (even tho I do recognize that they have set up sports school, focused more on all-rounded education, scraping of O levels for some students etc ), goes off to a working society that values meritocracy, joins the rat race, and basically follow all the “logical” paths which the government says is logical. Pragmatism may be one aspect that has been inculcated as well despite that people do have hearts of gold, but sometimes the gleam is overshadowed.

I could go on and on….

e up and cominG ktv junkie!

2004-12-18T13:25:00.000-08:00

Oh well.. it’s a Saturday today!.. treasuring weekends loads now.. hmm.. internship has really killed me… I am often bored to death at work.. but colleagues like Shuzhen (fellow intern), Yvonne and Rina have really helped to spice things up a ‘lil at work…. They are really great people.. always helping me out when I’m totally loss in the huge amount of work that the boss gives me… wat the heck.. and he always gives it to me nearing 6pm.. seems like a plot to make me stay back longer all the while… and dear Rina never fails to tease me about it every single day!… jus discovered how I can have my own ‘lil teabreak at work yest.. hahaz.. milo powder with condensed milk.. that’s it.. yepz.. I used to make it at home.. they think I’m nuts.. but it’s really great!.. hahaz..

Went ktv session yest.. hahaz.. getting to be quite an addict!.. probably kinda later than the rest to catch on the trend.. but still.. better late than never!.. love to jus watch jay chou and 5566 mtvs… SHE as well.. hahaz.. they are jus so cool to watch!.. I am always very amazed at the staff at k box.. stepping in there seems like I’m in some real cheena place.. esp the time at cineleisure with zhiying and dora… hahaz.. three of us super stunned when the staff jus keeps greeting us at every corner!... there are like close to 100 rooms over there.. or maybe even more!.. din get to explore that night.. hehez.. not to mention the way they speak Chinese w the Taiwanese accent sometimes… oh!.. and I wanna the autographed 5566 album at 30 K points!.. got more motivation to visit the joints to chalk up points this time round!

I wanna watch ‘without a paddle’ and ‘meet the fockers’ next! Hahaz.. think I had enough of horror shows for a while… needing something more light-hearted, the kinda that can laugh my head off kinda shows… laughter is the best medicine right!.. no point keep torturing myself hiding behind jackets all the time.. bleaHz

shudderinG shutTer..

2004-12-17T11:52:00.000-08:00

my laptop is still down!.. it was up for awhile on wed.. but went bonkers again on thurs!... what the heck!.. irritating!..

went to watch shutter last nite.. had initially thought it had gone off the screens but turned out bishan was showing it again yest... tk goodness.. been eyeing on it for quite some time, but not many pple would want to pay to get scared and suffer from nightmares!.. hahaz... but it really was a pretty good horror movie.. esp funny when me and "finland" (hahaz.. till now i still only know him by his sep prog) hid behind jackets.. think the pple in front weren't too pleased w us laughing during a horror show.. jeEz. the show has got to be one of the better horror shows in theatres these days.. right now.. not many horror movies make the grade... esp those korean ones.. remembered watching 'wishing stairs' and some tree show.. but those weren't fantastic.. this one talks abt some girl who's deeply attached to the photographer guy.. but she got dumped, suicidal and in the end she's back for revenge.. moral of story: dun let someone fall too deeply for you... hahaz.. crappy! pretty interesting show.. certainly gave me the creeps even till now.. but was jus wondering.. so was the girl already dead when she was hit by the car or was it jus a soul that got hit? and does a soul still remains in the real world after cremation? what's the point of cremation then?.. hmmm.. think too much... hahaz... reminds me of the time edgar was asking me if 'shark tale' is promoting gayism cos a vegetarian shark doesn't necessarily mean to be sissy or soft?!.. hahaz..

bro's back from india already.. not much of a diff to me.. except for not being able to slp on his elevated bed (oh yea.. i was slping on ur bed dear bro! bleahz!) but certainly to my parents.. glad he's back safe and sound.. and it also means.. the next one to be away would be me!!!.. yea!!.. can't wait to get to aust... mus get down to applying my visa soon manz... keep procrastinating... too lazy..

today's friday!!! finally!... wat's there to do for the weekends huh?.. dun feel like gg town since it's gonna be packed like hell.. hate the crowds.. i'm getting old and can't handle the hustle and bustle anymore.. hehez.. talking abt old.. really having severe memory loss manz.. can simply jus forget about things that happened during the week.. basically.. i've lost track of time!.. not forgetting the 'swedish meatballs' too! *grinz*

ren fu is soOooo cUte!

2004-12-13T11:33:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a while since i last wrote here huh..been worrying about prying eyes in the office!.. It's a pretty much open concept with all the small cubicles, so it's nerve wrecking to try to write in the blog! and what's more my net at home is STILL down!.. ridiculous!.. called the singnet pple and toshiba pple the other night.. and all they did were to refer me to one another!.. and amazingly, i've actually called to someone over in England!.. (cos i dialed the toshiba global helpline!).. what rubbish!.. all these jus to make my wireless at home work!

i've had a lazy weekend this week... basically slept my afternoons away at home... and led me to suffer from insomnia last night!.. laid on bed since 11pm.. but din manage to fall asleep till prob abt 1++!.. irritating!..jeez! and had all sorts of weird dreams through the night!.. hmphz

went to catch 5566 concert on sat night!..hahaz.. ren fu is S-U-P-E-R cute!!.. love him loads!.. took some blurry photos of the concert... basically it was this JS concert so had all the rest of the lot like 7 flowers (!?), K one.. and some newly branded groups like Typhoon and 183 Club!.. it's totally nonsensical!.. suddenly pop up so many groups!.. what's with this 183 Club!.. they have got yan xing shu and wang shao wei (5566 one as well).. jumbled up group if u ask me.. and i can't stand the cyndi wang!.. she's so act sweet.. lousy imitation of jolin tsai!.. meng zhe was sick.. apparently down w appendicitis.. (?).. erm.. they said the condition in chinese.. and i interpret it as appendicitis??.. hahaz.. not familiar with chinese medical terms.. anyhow.. it seems like 5566 is getting smaller.. without xiao dao (permanently MIA?) and meng zhe!... nevertheless, still has my ren fu!.. that's enough! hee

been spending quite a lot on stuff.. chalking up all the bills.. and somebody isn't too happy abt it.. hmm.. my new year resolution is to spend a lot less on shopping alright... hahaz.. pretty unconvincing i tell you.. bought loads of bags, clothes and shoes lately.. hmm.. i simply can't help it!

...

2004-12-06T13:34:00.000-08:00

at work now.. in the office.. jus had lunch... hmm.. dun really like this kinda life.. essentially.. no life!

cherishing my weekends, where i get to slack at home and stone!.. hehez.. went for hoi lan's bday bbq party on sat.. was thinking if i would've done the same, to invite relatives and all to a bbq or chalet at that time.. ha!.. but i doubt so!.. it's too much hard work and trouble to get things done... i'm more of a fuss-free kinda person.. hate it when things get too complicated... left the party pretty early.. abt 10.. wanted to go for a show or smthg.. but in the end was too tired (i haven't recover from my one day's work on friday!).. took a short stroll back home instead... din feel like gg back hm too early cos nothing to do at home also since my net is down.. then dun feel like gg out too cos tired.. contradicting.. but yah.. jus din wanna go home face walls.. hiakz!

sent off Sab and Sf to India at the airport on Sunday... been quite a while since i went there... changed quite a bit with all the upgrading works going on.. and they set up xmas trees over there as well... pretty nice touch.. but not enough i guess.. hehez.. asking too much... almost went there to study during the exam period.. but guess good idea not to.. the place is much too cold and with renovations going on.. not that conducive any longer.. anywayz.. hope both of them have loads of fun over in India.. and mus show me all the cute Indians photos yahz.. hahaz.. i still dun have v good impression of them.. i'm sorry!!

my comp is still down... but thanks lots Kunhao for helping me do the backing up of files... hehez.. disturbed him and his gf Wenmin almost the whole Sunday afternoon.. jeez.. pai seh!... played xbox at his house tho.. pretty fun.. me and Wenmin kena thrashed by the comp in the tennis game... but we soon got the hang of it and managed to win a few matches!.. yea!.. hahaz.. prefer these games than online games i guess... hahaz.. will i get addicted??.. but who will get me a xbox??? *hint hint*

today's monday.. counting down to friday.. hmm.. 4 days more..

IT-idiot

2004-12-04T10:44:00.000-08:00

my comp at home are BOTH down!!!... suxxy!.. god knows which dumb virus attacked my so-defenseless lappie.. hahaz.. i haven't installed any anti-virus software for it since i bought it in august!!... surprised that it actually managed to last this long, tho it certainly was showing signs of breakdown of late... but i din think much abt it... hmphz!

LISTEN UP you guys! studying is really more fun than working!!!... trust me!... i know!.. hahaz.. took it like a pinch of salt whenever people say that.. but having experienced it... i truly understand now!.. i've always learnt things the hard way!..wat's wrong with me!!??... it's routine, mundane, totally void of fun!... its plus point i guess is really the knowledge that you gained... probably the ONLY plus point! i've been more attached to the clock than any other days in my life!... i've been longing for the time to pass and hit 6pm the whole time.. yet i also try to avoid looking too eager to head home!... after work, i hardly have the mood to go out have dinner and play.. it wears me out... late nights are no-no... i'll suffer consequences the next day... i forsee i've super regular slping hours from now on... and i'm starting to look forward to weekends!!!... where probably i'll just stay home and slack!.. jEez... is that how i'm gonna be like after i graduate??... it's a nightmare!!! i dun want to work!

attended a presentation on valuation of an overseas property in Myanmar... saw pictures and basically has been exposed to valuation techniques and limitations... apparently, we can't get Myanmar currency over at our exchange booths... think it's called kyat or smthg.. we gotta get the currency from the country itself.. using US dollars... yet the official exchange rate in Myanmar is US$1= 6.2 kyats, but the black market rate is US$1=900 kyats!.. imagine the difference!!!...think it's similar to Cambodia.. dear fren Jessie who's heading there soon told me that she gotta change sing dollars into US dollars first, then head there to change for their local currency!... hmmm... talk abt absurd and irrationality to have two different rates for same currency... hehez.. i'm probably too used to the local rigidity and inflexibility.. furthermore, heard Myanmar has NO banks!.. people keep their money in safes at home... the banks are of no use given the economic situation there.. a world of difference from here huh.. kinda eye opener for me.. knew Myanmar wasn't that great a country, but had absolutely no idea it was that bad!... the pple's occupation there are mainly soldiers and monks.. there exist discrimination against females... and females aen't allowed to get out of the country... even the passports issued by the government are merely for single trips!.. each time u wanna get out of country, you gotta reapply for passports... and it's only successful if u know who to bribe! bribery is rampant there... and different generals rule different parts of country... the people there are highly suspicious of foreigners, especially those of professional jobs like lawyers and bankers... valuers as well!!.. they will take them for an "interview" to investigate your agenda in entering their country, probably afraid that they may usurp the country of smthg... the presentor gotta fake his identity as a valuer, and say he's a mere businessman to avoid arousing suspicion... jeez! furthermore, spies are littered everywhere.. think it's mentally stressing to know that your movements are being watched all the time!

tonight's there's zoukout!!!.. time to go party!! yabadabaDoo!!!!

2004-11-30T20:10:00.001-08:00

me and mummy!

dark clouds no more

2004-11-30T20:05:00.000-08:00

Had my space exam today, one of the suxxiest module that I had, probably cos of the lecturer.. basically no point gg for his classes since he’s most likely talking to himself.. pple wonderz how he’s gonna award tutorial marks of 10 %... me wonderz too.. probably jus based on attendance or something… it better be!!... hahaz.. I’m proud to say I attended all!! Would be cheating my feelings if my FLAWLESS attendance isn’t noted manz!

So happened today mum was home when I left for my exams… hmm.. i was bz cramming info into my teeny weeny brain.. which has seemed to shrink as I age.. and not that absorbent anymore!!.. jus before I left the hse, mum was in the kitchen but she kept nagging me to check my exam paper, be mindful not to leave out any questions unanswered, take note of time.. blahz blahz.. I’m 21 this year. I wouldn’t be exaggerating if I said these were the exact words that she said to me when I was 7 during the then Primary exam period… each time, she would be just replaying these ranting all over again for every single paper.. for the past ermm.. 14 years.. 14 years for every exams that I had, be it CA or SA… or even those regular tests that we had during secondary school.. she would always say the same thing over and over again…at that time, I would feel very irritated.. and jus curtly reply.. “ya la!” and simply jus bo chap her… but years down the road, today, as I hear her nag again… dun really know how to describe.. but it jus feels good.. hahaz.. moronic right?..hahaz.. hmmm… a sorta heartwarming kinda feeling.. a feeling that mum still cares, and in her heart, I’ll always be the blur kid who messes up exams with all careless mistakes.. she used to say dunno also mus write answer down, wrong nevermind… but carelessness cannot be pardoned.. hahaz… those were the days.. I love you mummy!

I’m left with my final development exam paper this Thursday.. it’s open book.. not being arrogant or complacent.. but it being an open book certainly relieves a lot of stress since you probably could jus bring anything into the exam hall and pretty much crap as much as you want.. so it shouldn’t be a problem despite the fact that I haven’t even gathered all my notes for this module yet… *crossfingers*…

so much so that in some sense, exams to me have nearly ended.. another period of agony and frustration has come to a close.. life’s normal again… without me grumbling about exams the entire time.. hehez… I bet it’s a relief to darlin tian, buddy dear, and all frenz whom I’ve been disturbing all these while to entertain me since it’s such a pain to study and boy, do I have short attention span!. hehez.. when I’m having problems, they wun be spared from them too!!.. even my dear fren veron in indon had to pacify me on msn!.. bleHz!.. this time round, I had a new-found bud bud to disturb as well.. got to know him better this sem only, din really notice his existence before probably cos both of us are such moronic slackers (!).. hahaz.. tho we may not know each other long but much has happened and I appreciate him for putting up with all my nonsense and rubbish… He’s a real nice guy (but what a gaming addict! hehez)... I’ve recovered. =) To him, dun take the backseat too long k.. seat’s gonna be real warm someday, and you may jus realized that tide has long cleared and passed but you are still stuck in the sea.. =pPppPpp

Exams really suxx.. why do they even bother testing us?.. we’ll jus forget all that we’ve studied the moment we step out of the exam hall.. worse, we wun even be using the concepts or formulas that we learn throughout school days when we head out to work.. waste of time and effort… and tears sometimes.. jeez!.. another cycle is over… for now, till the next cycle I dread, I’m a happy girl again! –smilez-

I want it my way.

2004-11-30T08:44:00.000-08:00

I may be pampered and spoilt. I may be unreasonable and totally nonsensical at times. I may be childish and intolerable. But I’m so used to getting things done my way, can’t I continue doing so??.. apparently not. There will definitely come times when things don’t go the way I want them to. I gotta grow up.

Does being appreciative=unhappiness?.. hmm.. actually, it shouldn’t be so. One ought to treasure things in life that surrounds him, but yet look towards having better things? I’m not as easily contented as some. I don’t believe in easy contentment. Is that what’s causing my misery? But ain’t I right not to look for easy path, and take the challenging ones? Or is it that these stuff only applies to certain instances? What are they then?

By insisting on things, I’ve made things difficult and cause pain to others. I need to grow up and see things from a bigger perspective. If so, can I don’t grow up? Can things remain the way they are? I wish to live in my own world, where everything’s beautiful there. I really do. Put me to sleep infinitely and let me live my life in my dreams.

If I had only known

2004-11-28T18:00:00.000-08:00

If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm

If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head

If I had only know
I'd never hear your voice again
You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away

If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you knew my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known

If I had only known
The love I would've shown

If I had only known

lazy afternoon

2004-11-27T12:37:00.000-08:00

lazy saturday afternoon.. don't feel like doing anything.. finally finished FOUR papers.. two more to go in the coming week.. jeez.. i'm really the last one among frenz to finish manz.. *grumble grumble*

gonna spend my weekend catching up on dumb space webcasts.. doubt it's useful, but at least feel more secure.. hahaz.. crappy but true.. hmmm..

realised many frenz are going for YEP trips this december holz.. pretty cool... would have joined if not for my internship.. been to one before during JC.. and had loads of fun.. went to a province in Thailand called Chiangrai.. the people there really really deserve our help.. hearts will melt when u see smiles on the lil kids faces.. at that time, they don't even have proper toilets.. they gotta construct two jus to accomodate us, the singaporean spoiled kids... i hardly appreciate things around me.. i have been taking things for granted.. only to realise how much things mean to me when they are gone.. even till now.. it's still the same..

abstraCt haPpineSs

2004-11-25T16:19:00.000-08:00

had my geog paper tday.. it was alright.. jus hoping that i din go out of point.. hehez.. tho i probably did, the whole 2hr paper was merely me crapping throughout.. hardly use any info from the assigned readings since i barely rem any!...another paper tmr.. planning.. jEez!. the one paper that the evening lectures and can't be bothered attitude.. will things start looking up??

can one's past really affect one now? will the past haunt us and still affect our decisions? is it true that once mistakes are done, the scar will always be there and nothing will heal it?... yet isn't it true that time heals all wounds? u were the one who told me u never know till u try.. i tried.. but u gave up. things happened too quickly, and i find difficulty in recovering.. yet.. time heals all wounds.

blabBer

2004-11-24T01:53:00.000-08:00

sighz.. so sianz at home.. hahaz... tmr got another geog paper that's on globalisation!.. think shouldn't be a problem right?.. hahaz.. considering arts paper is merely jus writing chunks and chunks of rubbish.. hmphz.. jus crapping..

haD a suXxy first exaM paPer todaY!

2004-11-19T15:40:00.000-08:00

been quite a while since i last written in my blog!.. no thanks to the sudden disruption to my internet service at home!.. wat the heck!.. god knows wat happened manz..

taken my first exam paper today.. and it suXXx... biG-time!.. how izzit that the idiotic lecturer can pin so high hopes on us that he set so difficult and time consuming question in the mere 2 1/2 paper?? he obviously will be disappointed when he sees our answers manz.. it's so dumb!.. barely finished half my paper this time round.. and what's with all the mistakes that i made in those that i somehow managed to scribble answers into the booklet.. what the heck!!!!... so much for a good start!

sighz.. exams suxx esp when the some of my frenz have finished their exams in ntu and polys.. feel so moronic being stuck in the exam stress..

tired after the paper. snorez.

can studying be any more FUN????

2004-11-06T14:01:00.000-08:00

in the midst of watching dumb hwang min's webcast!.. jeez! i've been trying to watchin it for the whole sat morning but yet i still have not completed a single lecture!.. he's so boring!... and i can't help but surf the net as he drones on and on.. finally couldn't take it, and i went for a nap!.. think it's gonna take me the whole sat jus to finish one of his lectures manz!.. arGhz.. wat the heck!!!!!!

nothing much happened.. been relying lots on my poor study partner to make sure i study.. hahaz.. it's true manz. ans i always disturbing him when he's trying so hard to concentrate... hahaz.. kinda cute tho! i can't study at home in the day, better progress at night.. but i need loads of slp, so tend to slp early... basically my whole day can jus accomplished nothing but frustration over all the readings!.. been reading my geog, but it all comes back to me in a blur.. haven't got the chance to print the planning notes.. dun even know if i have all my lecture notes w me.. hmPhz. bad way to study manz.

went gym yest.. fwahz.. i tell you, it's a killer.. haven't been there for quite a while and i feel old already! saw a couple of new personal trainers.. oh.. even their T shirts have the chinese terms already!.. talk abt targeting the China market.. oh well... say i'm biased or anything ugly.. but nv really did like the Chinese there.. rude and crude. enuff enuff yahz. hehEz..

the whole family's home today.. hmmm.. hardly the case on Saturdays.. guess my dad who treasures family bonding kinda thing will be happy huh.. let him be happy then.. hahaz..

suNdaY bluEz

2004-10-31T19:04:00.000-08:00

jEez... why izzit called monday blues and not sundays???... those with foresight will know it as sunday blues i think!... cos following is a monday!!! arghz.. crapping! but seriously, not feeling super fantastic despite that now is the weekend cos tmr still got sch!!!... and tue's presentation!.. hmm... everybody's so afraid of presentation!... why must the dumb lecturer traumatise all of us when he can merely ask for submission of hard copy instead of oral ppt as well!!.. those with absolutely no qualms abt oral ppt have my admiration siaz... not easy for most pple i believe... wonderz if those who seemed to be super natural speaking to an audience have stagefright also.. pple like anthony robbins do they suffer from stagefright?!... why don't they!

today's my bro's birthday!!!.. haPpy 17th birthday, oliver!!!... hope you having a great time with ur frenz now alright??.. can't stand you act, cos u having holz alrdy while my exams haven't even started!... hahaz

went to catch "yesterday once more" by andy lau and sammi cheng... hmmm.. alright la.. not as fantastic as i thot.. and the ending wasn't v clear... basically quite touching in a sense that even as the guy was abt to die, he still thought for the girl... hmmm.. not to mention the cool cars that both of them were driving!

glad that i'm not alone in my journey to uq next year... apparently there are 4 of us from NUS gg... hahz... yea! got company!.. hopefully everything goes well.. and i'm certainly looking forward to all the fun that we're gg to have!!!.. hahaz.. .best of all... no parental supervision!!!..

gg for dinner soon... hmmm.. wat shuld i eat???

rainy days suxx when u've got work to do!@!

2004-10-28T09:47:00.000-07:00

been bz w all de dumb procedures for my exchange to uq.. arghz.. i knew it's gonna be troublesome, but yet still went ahead with it.. some people jus never listen huh?!.. damn pissed w myself.. really hoping that the experience is all worth the effort and time!.. been making trips to the bank to get verification of financial status, payment of some overseas insurance etc.. arghz!.. still gotta fill up the approval forms, book airtickets.. i din know it's so ex! 900 jus for the tix! wat's more still gotta find accomodation there.. chances of living on campus is pretty slim, apparently the demand FAR exceeds supply.. and who the heck will give an exchange student a place there?!.. gotta find some rental units/rooms on my own.. sch starts on 18th feb, intending to leave for oz on the 16th, after CNY, which means i've got like only 2 days (at the most!) to look for accomodation there.. how's that possible!?.. hope ladyluck shines on me yah! mus really be bright bright light!

i'm ultra happy that i've received a call from chesterton international who has sorta cfm my internship there during the mth of dec till feb.. they've accomodated my erractic timing!.. i'm so damn grateful!.. w calculations, i'm prob jus gonna be there for like 2 plus months, even shorter than the already-short normal duration of 3 mths.. and this is the period with all the holz, xmas, new year, cny... furthermore, the guy who contacted me apparently is a super nice guy.. or at least that's what my lecturer said!.. AND.. i'm gonna do my fav field... valuation!.. jEez.. hope everything goes well manz... said will get in touch w me again... will he??!?!?.... *crossfingers*

finally printed all my notes for this wk.. ever since my printer broke down, with pathetic ink outcome, i've been lost in my own world!.. notes have jus been downloaded from ivle, and i really really can't read notes from the comp... i need them in hardcopy to digest!.. arghz.. inflexible!

slept like a pig recently.. almost like 10 hrs of slp each day.. but yet still feel so lethargic.. sighz.. what's wrong w me manz?! exams are coming, but yet still like that.. the cycle is coming back again!.. watch out!

listening to sun yan zi new song now on 933fm... hmmm... nice.. call me shallow.. but i'm a sucker for romance songs!

@@@projectphobia@@@

2004-10-22T23:50:00.000-07:00

been quite long since i last crapped over here.. has been bz with dev proj and boy, tk god it's over!.. had a pretty hectic day tday.. with all the last min editing, formatting and printing.. deadline's was supposed to be at 3, but submitted like half hr late.. tkfully not penalised!.. else i'll blow my top jus cos of half hr lag! one can imagine how kan cheong the whole grp was!.. hehEz.. but i mus say.. all members were FABULOUS!.. it's true that we ain't close before embarking on the proj... i dun even know some of their names initially!.. but it's been a heartening experience with all of us helping each other out.. and managing to put all the pieces together ultimately!.. next up.. presentation!.. arghz.. hate it... i've stagefright!!!.. honest!.. i can't handle presentations well... they are really traumatic experiences for me!

erm.. still have another one more proj.. my geog module.. globalisation. been quite interested in this topic... all the causes and effects of this phenomenon are so mind-blogging!.. the word may have been overutilised today.. but it actually existed like donkey ears ago!.. ever since there's such a thing as trade!.. haven't really thinking abt this proj yet.. no tks to all my previous projects.. and the deadline's coming monday.. abt 2000 word essay.. arghz.. wat the heck!

been lagging behind all my lectures, esp those webcast ( the bane of technology)..hehez.. mentality is that if it's webcast, can afford not to go.. but i hardly have the discipline to sit in front of the screen, stare at it for 2 hrs to listen to monotonous lecturer speak!.. they sometimes really suxx ya knoe?!.. esp space.. hwang min. can't stand him!.. sick also cannot dun take test.. where got such logic?!.. tutorials as well.. stupid. had a makeup session for planning earlier.. was falling asleep.. stupid hand looks as if as it's raised up, caught tutor's attention, asked to answer question!.. had absolutely no idea wat she was babbling about earlier..smthg abt vertical, garden and broadacre cities... jeez.. i nv even heard of broadacre cities till during the tutorial!.. erm.. yepz.. this is one module that i'm guilty of constantly skipping lectures despite not being webcast.. hey!.. it's from 6pm to 8pm know?.. i'll be braindead by the time i get back home at 9!

if only

2004-10-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

many frenz have asked why my blog's titled if only...

there are many decisions that one has to make in life... causes and effects follow.. if an essay has to be written with such a topic, i would've pitied the writer, he would have many things to cover. there are so many things for a person to try and experience, but time is never enough.. if only we can be at many places doing many things at one time, then perhaps all grounds would be covered..

if only has a negative connotation. it fills a person with regret. if only i had do that, this wouldn't have happened. many times, most pple tend to take things for granted. i'm guilty of this. sometimes, i dun really appreciate things that happen around me... wait till it's gone yahz... jeez. juz a thot.

la di da la

2004-10-13T14:25:00.000-07:00

handed planning proj yest.. great work guys.. sab, zy, sx n ml!... hard work all the way, trying to figure out something as ambiguious as sense of identity in NUS!.. what de heck! .. grateful to you guys for helping me out during the period while i was down with shitty fever etc.. hehez.. you guys were accomodating and made sure that i was okay before loading me with work... yepz.. huGz.

left with dev n geog proj!!.. it's like never-ending.. first with valuation, yest was planning, next fri's dev and following monday is geog!.. aRghz!.. dun the lecturers even know how to plan the work schedule?!.. wat's more with all the tutorials that require preparation for presentation!.. no help at all!...

mum's bday next thurs.. god knows what to get for her.. think cake enuff right??.... coz her expectations for presents are too high and ii can't afford them!.. and.. erm.. i'm helping dad to reduce the price of his gift as well??.. hmm.. i'm doing a good deed! SOMEBODY'S gonna get the cake for me right??? better remember k... *winkz*

many of my webcast lect still untouched.. jeez.. loads of catching up to do.. esp the stupid space lect.. dumb lecturer, dumb lecture, yet smart students!..hehez.. crapping!

jeez.. dunno to cry or be happy... my parents are heading to shanghai this nov... without me!!!.. what the heck!... i'll be having my exams then! how is that possible?!... i wanna go!!...

hectic wk aheaD

2004-10-10T18:45:00.000-07:00

will one get addicted to write blogs?? hehez.. maybe for me, i just might!.. since i'm such a crappy person.. mite as well pen these all down rather than to disturb pple with all my nonsense.. esp my poor darling!... hahaz.. see i so nice?!.. hiakz

juz spent the whole sunday afternoon.. doing like nothing!..jeez.. hardly get down to any work.. managed to complete editing urban planning proj.. did a biblio... (you won't believe it!.. my first ever!) hahaz.. cheap accomplishment!.. went to d/l an online game MapleStory... at www.mapleglobal.com.. dun really know what's going on.. but the graphics are so cute! played for fun.. it prob gonna spark another comp game addict in me after the previous Sims.. hehez.. act hope not... coz exams are coming!.. prob too early to say.. but it happens everytime.. i always tell myself to start revising early.. but somehow.. manage to procrastinate till the night before the exams!... wat's new manz?!

gonna do my valuation assignment now.. without my financial cal.. sighz.. life's terrible!

2004-10-09T13:47:00.000-07:00

not all children enjoy these rights..

my first entry!!!

2004-10-09T13:17:00.000-07:00

been looking through my frenz' blogs and i juz thot it may be interesting to have my own too!!.. kinda reminds me abt the open diary that i once had but now long forgotten... dun even rem which open diary i subscribed to, much less my password and id!... arghz.. forget it.. prob wrote silly things in there anyway...

much credit giving to shihua... hehez.. it was only after reading his blog that i created mine.. pretty much long lost fren from pri sch.. used to sit beside him.. irritated me like hell (two-way process i guess).. fanatic about soccer and hardy boys, nancy drew kinda stories.. rem he used to compete with Quanli who reads more books! then again, was there even a competition?.. hehezz... anyway glad to know he's doing well in london.. MOE scholar or something??..hahaz.. not surprising actually.. since he always gets good grades and pretty hardworking as well.. jeez.. haven't seen him since graduated from pri sch.. or maybe i did through one of the rare pri sch outings that we had...

it's a lazy sat afternoon.. god knows what i'm gonna do ltr.. was thinking of gg blading.. but feeling too lazy now.... got LOADS of proj work to do.. been missing out quite a bit on my dev and planning projs.. got editing work to be done... still got valuation tut to prepare.. better get started... help!!!